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April 20, 2015

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So, not the Monday that just passed, but the Monday before that, on April 6, 2015, I went to court on Monday morning for a Permanency Hearing for custody of my daughter, Baby Mary Louise. I was given FULL custody of Baby Mary effective immediately. My daughter was returned home to me at 5:00 that day. She was so happy to see me and I remember grabbing her and jogging around the car and saying, “We’re just doing our victory lap!” LOL! You know, they make it next to IMPOSSIBLE to get your kids back home with you once they’ve taken them. You’ve got to basically jump through hoops to get them back. I did everything that I was supposed to do, plus extra shit on the side. I am proud of myself for the changes that I’ve made in my life, and anyone who wants to talk shit about that? You know where you can shove it. I am on cloud nine. Don’t hate on ME, because YOU are miserable. πŸ˜‰

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April 15, 2015

So, I have exactly one year clean and sober today! Woot! And like I said in my last journal entry, I am very proud of myself for all of the positive changes that I am making and have made in my life the past year. I have come a long fucking way and NO ONE can take that away from me. You can try ALLLL you want.. But it’s NOT happening. I am now an advocate in the community and I help sick addicts get help. If I change the lives of just a few people than my purpose in life will have been served. I went through everything that I went through for a reason. Things happen for reasons. The Lord had a serious plan for me to help people. I wouldn’t be able to help them if I hadn’t overcome it myself. So, I recognize that and at the end of the day, I am GRATEFUL for the experience, strength and hope that I give others.

As for the rest of my life, everything is just falling back in to place. I’ve met and exceeded all of the goals that I have made a year ago. I am going to make something of myself. It is NOT too late for me.. And I still got a few mother fuckers to prove wrong. Like the DUMB ASS that made the statement about my “terminal illness”. Well for that person, apparently you need to read up on your Hepatitis information, because you’ve got it twisted. YES! I am Hep C positive. YES! There IS an 89% CURE RATE with either Medication OR, in rare cases, it clears up on it’s own. I happen to be in the latter group. So read it and weep. My next journal will be about the scientific research done on clients who’s Hepatitis C CLEARED UP ON IT’S OWN. And by the by.. I never said I was off the hook. If you had READ the entry, you’d have seen that it didn’t leave without FIRST DOING DAMAGE. That’s why they call it a TERMINAL illness.. Because even though I no longer carry the virus, I can STILL get Cirrhosis.

Anyway, I have a year sober today! I am very proud of myself, and NO ONE can take that away from me. NO ONE.

January 2015

Vampire Journal – BeautifulEnlightenment’s Journal. My So-Called Life//

Court Outcome
Β Jan 21 2015

Well, I went to court last week! Sorry it took so long to write this, but you know me! Side-Tracked is my first name and Procrastinate is my last hehe. Anyway, it was great!! They had nothing but good things to say about me, and how they were happy that I have worked so hard to achieve my sobriety and get my family back together! The prosecutor was very happy and so was my lawyer and the DSS supervisor! They have court ordered a self-executing Reunification order, which means that I don’t have to go back to court to get her back home. She can come home ANY time between TODAY and the next court date. HOWEVER, the next court date is April 6, 2015, and they will be DISMISSING my case that day. So she will have been home way before than! So, I asked my lawyer the following question: “In your profession opinion, when do you think she will be coming home?” He was like, well it’s really hard for me to answer that because it’s really up to the division, and I was like, ok, let me rephrase the question. In your professional opinion, what MONTH do you think Baby Mary will be coming home?” And he was like, “Probably some time in February.” WOOT!!! All I can think of is that song, cause I’m happy!! hehe

So yeah! My visits are now all unsupervised and I’m starting to get my take home doses from the methadone clinic. That means I’m only going from Monday through Friday. Then in about two more months, I’ll only have to go Mon-Thurs.. then so on and so forth! WOOT! Nothin but good, happy news here!! πŸ™‚ Hope everyone will be as blessed as me in the future!

January 2015 Court

Well, I went to court last week! Sorry it took so long to write this, but you know me! Side-Tracked is my first name and Procrastinate is my last hehe. Anyway, it was great!! They had nothing but good things to say about me, and how they were happy that I have worked so hard to achieve my sobriety and get my family back together! The prosecutor was very happy and so was my lawyer and the DSS supervisor! They have court ordered a self-executing Reunification order, which means that I don’t have to go back to court to get her back home. She can come home ANY time between TODAY and the next court date. HOWEVER, the next court date is April 6, 2015, and they will be DISMISSING my case that day. So she will have been home way before than! So, I asked my lawyer the following question: “In your profession opinion, when do you think she will be coming home?” He was like, well it’s really hard for me to answer that because it’s really up to the division, and I was like, ok, let me rephrase the question. In your professional opinion, what MONTH do you think Baby Mary will be coming home?” And he was like, “Probably some time in February.” WOOT!!! All I can think of is that song, cause I’m happy!! hehe

So yeah! My visits are now all unsupervised and I’m starting to get my take home doses from the methadone clinic. That means I’m only going from Monday through Friday. Then in about two more months, I’ll only have to go Mon-Thurs.. then so on and so forth! WOOT! Nothin but good, happy news here!! πŸ™‚ Hope everyone will be as blessed as me in the future!